Hey there my friend,

Shit has been crazy in my head, as you know your about to have a new grand baby, her name is Ella Marie, cool name huh? I never knew life could be like this, you told me that me and your daughter were meant to be, and you were right, and we have pretty good-looking kids together too, oh and to mention an incredible life too!

The reason why I have been wanting to talk to you is the rest of my life, if you will my pre marriage life, the baby mommas, and that crazy shit. Having sex with girls I knew I had no future with, being short-sighted, letting my peter be my leader. To those kids, I want to show them what type of man I have grown to be, besides my second oldest, the rest could give a fuck. You don’t know what you fucken don’t know!! I’m just saying. This post will go to my facebook, if you don’t like it unfriend me or comment.

  From my life experiences they will pick the wrong fucken men, some of that blame goes on me, I will never take all that shit, it took two to tangle. But the thing is I can’t even have a shot at trying to be in the lives, their mothers didn’t see me as important, so the child doesn’t either.  Other than my second oldest. At the moment I want to just say some foul shit to them, but it won’t help the situation. My nieces love the shit out of their fathers, and they were in and out of there lives?? But I guess my kids are unforgiving, smh. What’s strange is I can think of maybe one woman who I was with seriously, that came from a broken home. This world is a fucking trip, my father died when I was 2, I miss him dearly and I don’t remember a thing about him except what folks tell me. I’m betting he could have helped me to avoid some of the pitfalls that I ventured into, blindly. Men carry a different perspective of the world, and kids need that shit! “I don’t need no man to raise my kids, bitch it ain’t about you!!” 

Now I workout to live to be old, so I can give my babies all the knowledge and wisdom  I have acquired so they may be the best they can be in this crazy fucken, media driven, superficial  fucken world.

stat tuned I ain’t done