Sometimes I wonder why things are as they are? I sit back and just look at life, usually I look at it through my own eyes, but on occasion I borrow someone else’s to try to see what they see (I’ll pass). Growing up in the hood has made me so self centered. Poor and suffering doesn’t make you more religious. Once I discovered that poor was a “choice” I just made a different “choice”.

Had my 40 year check up, pretty invasive haha. Man did I dodge some bullets, knowing how abused my body and mind for a few years strong. I had seen a tweet by Russell Simmons, stating that black men out live every other race in jail, my 1st thought was damn! “they making sure we pay for the shit we do” but then my next thought was that black men are forced to see a doctor in jail(make sense). My proof to that is my boy is a nurse (I know that shit sound funny) but he told me that they amputate black people feet and legs just about every night, come in with their feet completely black with infection, for some reason we don’t go to doctors, till its too late.

The month of May was horrible time in my life, I had what they called “Valley Fever”. The symptoms are fatigue, empty blisters in the palm of my hands, feet and face. They say you can have it up to a year. After $900 of specialist fees, I’m getting better…I went to the doctor early..