How it was expressed to me was elegantly disturbing, I was pissed and relieved at the same time. I’ve needed someone to let me see life through their eyes for just a few moments, I got to tell you, it was incredible! This dude was pissed about the cards life have given him to play. Just a little background, when we met know one could stand him, he was a loud mouth, abrasive dude that was close to being punched on the hoop court. What was strange he was outwardly what I was on the inside, to a degree I admired who he was and still to this day consider him a friend.
So let’s get to it, I have never had anyone call bullshit on my thought process right to my face as he did.
 A broken heart tells no lies, just as a drunkard tongue tell no lies. What was strange is this was the 1st time he actually reached out to me in a need of something, from me of all people, even so he made me feel like it was a privilege for him to come to me. While on the phone, he being who he was, loud mouth and abrasive as usual. He asked how I was now earning a living? I told him that I was back at the dealership, I felt a bit embarrassed, but fuck it! we need the money, and yes it is honorable, and yes I can do it, well too, but I thought I had got past it. We still have Tiburon but were still growing, lets say we haven’t reached our potential just yet, potential is such a shit word. But I invited him to come work with me since he was in between gigs. And I could see him being awesome at it, cause he talks so as a matter of fact. He politely declined, meaning his punk ass never came over for the interview. When he did come to see me, it was on.

 He said he would stop by the dealership and he did this time. It begin with the simple pleasantries, what’s up? How things going? How’s the fam? then I mentioned that I wanted to pursue platform speaking, and the fact that I have a desire to move into a bigger home, and I begin to mention things about my goals, from there he flew off the handle. He told me that I had been brainwashed by the man..

These words he spoke were incredibly  passionate, he asked was I happy right now? what a thought provoking question. He said Kieran if your not happy right now, more shit in your  life is not going to change that, he continued and by this time he was pretty animated, folks walking by must have thought we were arguing. This dude was giving me the business, I knew too that he was hurting he was in one of those places that has to make you better if it doesn’t kill you. What he had just been through just about did kill him, moved his family on job opportunity,2000 miles away to see it was bullshit, or he hadn’t read the fine print. Came back and lost it all, wife, kid, money and pride.

I was all hyped up to tell him some things in my life, the fact that my father n law had just passed, and out of the love I have for this man, came my courage. He was not interested, for once I had to just listen. He is probably the most honest person I know, he could give a shit about my feelings. I had mentioned to him that I wanted to get on the speaking circuit and he gave it to me, as I’ve mentioned he has always been pretty brash, that’s why I have so much respect for him, he is my friend and I know he never talks to me with something to gain in mind