The song “Love” by Musiq keeps going thru my head. We sit here with anticipation of our son’s arrival. My wife has the Pitocin going, which is to induce contractions, which causes the water to break. We’ve been here since 10 and she has had just a few contractions, its actually his due date. My had had a prediction that he would come before Christmas, well Christmas came and went and nothing yet. We walked the neighborhood, a ton but he is still chillaxin in the womb.
We have watched 3 movies now, looking out the window with a strange feeling that everything is going to be ok. After him I don’t know that we will have anymore children, but my wife gives me the freedom to be the father I always wanted to be, she loves me, and believes in who I am, that’s heavyweight stuff. The kids I had before, they came from just raw sex; literally. I knew that I would not be able to be me with any of them, man is that fucked up for the kids, I never fought for any of those kids love. Believe me it shows, by the lack of Relationship that we have, I’m pretty much just a stranger to all of them, its hurts; but they are strangers to me too.